Oh the Art student/Dreams/Ambitions

So i may not be an art major but i am minoring in graphic design and i have found that i have mostly art classes to finish school by the closing of this year or at most by next summer. Well last week was complete hell and my stress levels went through the roof but i find myself developing as an artist. Turns out what i really want to do in life is be an artist, a graphic designer, an illustrator.

I want to design, write, and illustrate children's books. Maybe one day i will be good enough to be a published and well know author and illustrator and get my name out there and have the "fame" i always dreamed of... back when being an actress was my goal.

And still...

The dreams never end...

I truly long to have a simple and beautiful house, the kind you almost never want to leave, with a dog or two, maybe a Corgi, American bulldog, or a Lab... i don't know? I do know that i want those laughing happy eyes to bound up the yard or to the door to great me home everyday. I want to smell the pasture land nearby and see my horses ears prick up and whinny in my direction, possibly. eventually i want children as well, laughing and playing in the backyard... i haven't dreamt this out very well because it's something i am also afraid to dwell on for to long, for now i am happy with my nephew, niece and whatever is on it's way! Yes i know i want family but how soon do i want it remains unanswered in even my own mind.

I never considered myself the ambitious type or determined, and i feel others have felt the same way, but the way i see it, now, is that i am all those things just going in different directions then others. Some will continue on with me in my life and others won't and haven't but that's up to them, but ultimately up to me. In the end I say who stays and who goes for the most part because of course i can't effect the course of free will.

Anyway enough babbling i feel like a go on and on... its lunch time, time to get out and continue my day and my life!

A Busy Day turned Quiet Night!

Well at 10pm all the demands of school and life planning stopped...

To sit in the company of two wonderful people, *cough* Olivia, Heather *cough* i began to unwind from my very long day. I got to pause and fully re-appreciate college again. Hopefully i can make it to the end. Everyone is rooting for me so it shouldn't be a problem, but every once in a while i am quite discouraged. However dwelling on my testing day isn't what i care to do, i wish to share my great pleasure of knowing when i will graduate. Thats right,  I will Graduate in no less than year. I have decided and i will not alter this decision. Some may think i would have but they are sorely mistaken, and they miss judged me.

I would never quit something i am so close to finishing...

This is major!

The end is nearing and i don't think grad school is for me at least not right away. I am going to work for a bit, find out if this path i have started on is really what i want... maybe have babies when i near my 30's. Who knows? What is definite is i am graduating 2010! HA HA! only one extra semester and hopefully an internship this summer!

Well i got it off my chest... goodnight!

Student+Dying=Studying

I don't want to study anymore...

This law test should take itself, and for that matter so should my equipment technologies test on microphones.
Anyway, i am feeling pretty confident about this test. I will just listen to this lecture all day for law, take the test tonight, and for the microphone test i will go over my notes listen to that lecture at least once and read the lecture slides. Maybe i will do ok.

I'm feezing, omg! Someone needs to come find me and hold me until i am toasty warm again!

I wish the sun would come out!

I wish i had time to do something fun!

I wish it was summer again!

I'm trying hard to be extremely random and i am failing! I Know everyone loves my random awesomeness...

*sigh*

BANANANANANANANANANA!!!!

;)

Random thoughts as always!

So i was told today that i shouldn't beat myself up about messing up on the air. I was also told that the mic loves my voice, that my voice has a very good sound to it and that i just need to build up self confidence.
Easy for my professor to say! i am terrified of that mic, i am having a hard time concentrating on what to do next, and i can't seem to project my voice. But i do love this class!

The professor who tried to reassure me is also my Law professor. I am also enjoying that class oddly enough! Who would have thought this dumb, unattractive, etc. would like her law class. YEAH and that thought can go right to eh hem...

on that note mom is online and i wish to speak to her about my weird day!

peace!